Finally got the question...

So, today I went and had a mani and pedi just to get out of the house. I was seated to a very talkative, but very nice lady who was busy talking away about her kids. I was minding my own business trying not to convey any hate b/c she was in some breaths complaining about her kids, then she asks me "so, do you have any kids?"...Of course, she was just trying to strike up conversation and I didn't want that pity look, so I just answered "yes, but my daughter has passed away, so I don't have any living children." Still got that pity look, but that was the first time that I have been asked that question since Lily passed away...mainly b/c I'm still out on medical leave and don't get out of the house too often. I was surprised that I wasn't overly emotional and I have spent the whole day re-living that moment. Its just so hard, but I have to accept that there are going to be pregnant women and babies born healthy everyday and other mommies are going to ask me questions b/c I'm obviously of childbearing age...slowly but surely is my new mantra.