Sunday, December 28, 2008

A whisper in my ear & peace for my soul

I know God talks to you at unexpected times, but I didn't expect to feel His presence and hear His voice at the movies. I went to see "Seven Pounds" yesterday with my darling bestfriend of 23 years. For months my mind has been stuck on death, but this movie makes you think on how precious each heartbeat truly is...all of a sudden I felt God's peace flood over me. In such a way that I am still in awe. I can't put this moment into words, but I feel such a river of peace going through my soul. He has given me a renewed spirit, and a strength to carry on even if I still miss Lily. To be honest I have really been trying to give God the cold shoulder because I was mad at Him for allowing Lily to die...and to be honest I wasn't really sure that He cared that I wasn't talking to Him, but yesterday He showed His love to me in a special way that again I can't explain wholly, and this was a special moment in my relationship with Him.

I woke up this morning and went to church with so much excitement to learn and be with other believers. I haven't felt this way since Lily died. I'm no longer afraid of death, but I am convicted now on enjoying living now...and know that one day I will be with Him in glory, and will finally hug my daughter. Life is for the living~ and this must be done remarkably and abundantly.

1 comment:

Never forgetting Gregory said...

This sounds great. What a great unexpected moment. It sounds like a new outlook for 2009 will be just perfect for you.