Monday, July 6, 2009

Addendum to my previous post~

I am hoping that most who read my previous post knowing that I'm not turning my back on God but trying with all my human might to repair my end of my relationship with our Heavenly Father.

I did go to church yesterday which is why my heart was trouble by my thoughts and words during the last 11 months. I did open my bible this morning with a heart and soul that is eager to hear God's words.

I know not everyone that reads this blog is a believer, and these posts maybe very trivial to some. These thoughts are important to me in my growth as a believer, whether you accepted Jesus as your personal Saviour when you were a child (as in my case) or you accepted His grace and mercy just yesterday.

As always, thank you for your patience as a waddle my way through this grieving process. You all are wonderful and I love all of you...which, is nuts because I've never met any of you!


Hollie said...

I know what you mean. I was one of the ones who, as a child, excepted Jesus. I've always had my own, close relationship with Him. I don't make it a point to go to church, but that doesn't mean I'm losing touch.

I think we have all struggled with our relationship since losing our babies. I never gave up on Him, but I questioned things a lot more. In a way, it made me closer to him, but more distant at the same time. If that even makes sense.

I think we'll all get to the point where we're 100% comfortable in that relationship again. NO idea when it will happen, but I'm confident that it will. And it's nice to know that no matter how far we venture, He's right there with open arms, waiting to welcome us back.

We all love you too!!! :)

Mirna said...

I always read what your Spirit say - or as we all know it by 'reading in between the lines'. Jen, God loves you so much and he knows you too well. We are the ones who are sometimes too hard on ourselves, and when we come to our 'senses' He has already forgiven us. Like Hollie said He awaits with open arms. God is so Awesome and the more we come to know Him the less we know. I love you too! I think you are a awesome mommy! :) Beeeg hugs.