4 years

How is Lily's 4th birthday on Friday?  Where has the time gone?  It seems like one day I was drowning in grief then I learned how to wade and now I'm swimming along in what appears to be a normal life.  I still think of her nearly everyday but I'm not as sad this birthday as I was last year...I must be getting "better", whatever that means...

I'm doing the memory boxes again for her birthday and I'm delivering them tomorrow.  I changed them up a little this year with doing a photo book instead of a journal, a candle and a pregnancy and infant loss pin.  I have a whole day planned with going to Callaway Gardens for the butterfly house (we were going to do this last year but it just didn't happen) and we're also taking Coop to the wild animal safari on Friday.  I plan on (finally) reading him "Someone Came before You" while we're in the butterfly house.  I just want to have a special moment with him to celebrate his big sister.  He's only 2 so he doesn't have a concept of death but he does see pics of her and we talk about her to him often.

I made four baskets, 2 girls and 2 boys, to be donated tomorrow~