I found this image while playing on the internet last night and I thought about the truth of the words as I went to bed. I sometimes wonder how the people in real life feel when I post something about Lily on face.book...some of my "friends" on face.book are the same people that would quickly change the subject if Lily's name were brought up in conversation. I do know that they NEVER comment so the avoidance is universal. I know I've seen minds wander when I talk with various people about both of my pregnancy experiences. In fairness, I do have a lot of wonderful people in my life that allow me to talk about Lily whenever I want and I know that they aren't "uncomfortable" with my daughter's life.

Becoming a mommy to a baby on Earth hasn't changed the fact that I have a baby in Heaven. I recently read a post on my birthboard that was religion focused. The girl came out and said "people who have lost a baby believe in God because it makes them feel better to believe that their baby is in heaven rather than the baby becoming nothing..." (this isn't verbatim but is close enough) I do believe in God and honestly I can't allow myself to believe that Lily isn't in Heaven. I honestly don't know how I would make it through this life if I didn't have a reunion in glory in my vision...

I made a sign for Cooper's stroller for the March of Dimes's March for Babies next weekend that says "My big sister lives in Heaven" with Lily's name, birthdate, and gestation...

Mommy will never forget, precious one...