Scared...

I had a dream last night that I was 25 weeks pregnant and was out shopping with my mom and sister, and my water breaks. I remember crying in my dream and telling my sister to hurry up and call Chuck. I'm crying and saying over and over again "I'm going to lose another baby..."

I guess these fears are starting to fester as our start date of TTC again approaches. The pain of losing Lily has been tremendous and I do fear of something happening again. I don't know how I could piece my heart together again if something else were to happen. Unfornately, we in dbm land know that multiple losses do happen...

I know I can't allow fear to keep us from achieving our goals of having a child in our home, but there isn't anyway of keeping the fear away either...