I was going to write a post about the March for Babies walk that we participated in for Lily and Cooper yesterday but it doesn't feel right...

Please, go show Becky some love on her blog.  I don't know what happened but her rainbow baby, Evelynn, passed away.  My heart is devastated for her.

3 more days until The March for Babies!

I can't believe that we're only 3 days away from the walk! It's been a busy week of finishing the little details like making our matching shirts and 4th quarter fundraising...

I also decided to decorate my rainbow baby's wagon with butterflies! I posted on Fb if my blm friends would like their baby(ies)'s name on a butterfly and the response was tremendous! His wagon is going to be beautiful and I do get a little misty eyed when I think of these butterflies being with us for the entire walk!

I included a pic of Lily's butterfly :) also, there is still time to donate! All you have to do is click on the following link and your donation is tax deductible...

Lily's shirt for her brother :)

I wanted something special for Cooper to wear to the March for Babies walk this year so I had a t-shirt made by a fellow blm, Katy, who is the mastermind behind Somewhere over the Rainbow. Her shop is precious and she sells many items for our angel babies as well as items for our rainbow babies.

I had a huge smile on my face that this shirt came today since you will remember that today is a special day between her and I if you read my previous post :)

The anniversary...

Today is the anniversary of the happiest day of my life. Today, 4 years ago, was the day that I got my positive pregnancy test with Lily. We had been waiting to see the word "pregnant" on a hpt for almost 2 years. Today is also my 34th birthday...

Lily,

You changed the meaning of my birthday when you made your presence known. I envisioned my birthdays to be so different when I took that test and found out that you would be coming into our world. I imagined sharing birthday cake with you and you making me a homemade card. We both know that today won't be filled with these sweet memories (with you being here)but the day that I found out about you will always be my sweetest memory.

I know we'll celebrate together one day and until then...I love you and miss you relentlessly.

Forever,
Mommy

March for Babies 2012

We're participating with the March of Dimes' March for Babies for the 4th year in a row! We're very excited to participate again and I actually met with a rep yesterday to give her some suggestions. One suggestion has been nagging on my heart since our very first walk...

I've been troubled by the lack of acknowledgement for the babies that don't make it and who will never attend a walk. I remember wearing Lily's tiny purple hat on my shirt and wondering why her life felt insignificant amongst all the celebration. What about her life? The life that is just as important as her brother's life, the life that she never really got to live...

I mentioned this to the rep yesterday and I didn't want to but I actually shed a few tears...I keep my emotions in check rather well, I think, but the tears came anyways. I would love to have just a moment of silence for all the precious little feet that will never take their first steps. I originally did the walk in memorial for Lily and took every step with her in my mind and on my heart.

It's my life's mission to be the best possible mother to both my babies. So, if that means that I have to be extra vocal so that her life and the lives of all her friends are acknowledged...then, bring it on! The rep was very receptive to suggestions and I do hope that she took them back to the decisionmakers...who I don't mind talking to, also!

I talked to some other blm friends and other cities do some type of memorial for the babies that don't make it...it's time that the Atlanta Chapter get on board...

Side note: You can donate to our March for Babies time by clicking on the badge to the right :)

Valentine's Day

I'm thinking of you and your sweet babies today as we celebrate Valentine's Day. Our love for our babies never dies. It lives on today and everyday...

I sent a Valentine's day themed pic to those of you that have made recent name requests so please check your email...

Love to all of you today and always!
Jen, Lily and Cooper's mommy

Daughtry "Gone to Soon" Dedicated to those who have lost a child.

A fellow blm and friend shared this on facebook today and I just sobbed. I can't put into words how much I still miss her...

Grab the tissues!