Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Everyday

I just started reading a new blog today Face of Loss which is a blog about women sharing their stories of loss and the story is accompanied by a picture of them. I read story after story. I looked at all of these women's faces and noticed that all of them look "normal." All of the stories are heartbreaking...none of these stories have happy endings...all of them left me in tears...

I noticed one of the stories and the date of death for their baby was my birthday. I thought to myself "that day was the worst day of someone's life and I was sitting in the movies...." Then, a lot of people were carrying on their lives while my world was falling down around me...

Pregnancy loss or infant death will strike someone's family this very second. A heart is breaking and a world is falling apart before I finish this sentence.

It's been almost 2 years since I lost Lily so the pain has become bearable but right this very moment a mother and father will feel like they can't breath and they'll wonder how they will every live a normal life again...

Babies dying happens everyday...A woman's dream for her baby will never come into fruition...

This mother will ask herself "why me?"...my new question after nearly 2 years in this new normal is "why anyone?"

No one deserves this pain...no one...but, everyday the pain is handed to a new family...

6 comments:

Lilly's Mom (Desiree) said...

you're right. none of us deserve this pain...but it's been handed to us. :( praying for you...

Melissa said...

I think the same thing - every time I see a date that a baby died that had some significance in my life I think to myself, Wow - I remember what I was doing that day. After Jack died I remember reading all the stories and reading blogs from start to finish and I just could not believe this has happened to so many people. Now, I am so sad to see so many new blogs out there all the time - it is so heartbreaking.

Brie said...

rightly said Jen. I contributed my story to the site, and it is hard to read through all the losses, and still keep hope, however, I think Kristin will do a fantastic job at opening up discussions on hope and the future, since the title contains the word HOPE.

I need hope right now. I feel at a crossroads and like things are NEVER going to happen. I hear this is a common feeling, but have nothing to base it on.

Do you, 2 years after losing Lily, feel like you are standing still sometimes? Not sure which direction to go?

brigette said...

So true. Its not fair and its so hard and it happens all to often. I will never understand. Hoping that we can all feel some peace today. You are so sweet!

Maggie said...

So very true. (((HUGS)))

B's Mom said...

I never heard of that blog before, but now you have me hooked! :)