Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Nervous

I'm really nervous about the appointment with the second opinion doctor tomorrow. I am totally preparing myself for negative news because lets face it...I had a placenta abruption and according to my internet research the possiblity is about 10% for subsequent pregnancies AND a uterine rupture which runs a risk of about 10-19% chance of happening again. The first specialist said that due to where my rupture occurred and the size of the rupture that my risk could be up to 60-70% chance of another rupture. I really don't even know why I'm going to this appointment~ Who in their right mind would even want to be pregnant again with odds like these?

Its just hard to let go of the desire to be pregnant and to give birth to a biological child, and I know there are people out there that think I should just accept what I have been told by the specialist...but ask yourself how easily you could accept never being pregnant again.

6 comments:

Hollie said...

I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for you, for good news tomorrow hun!!

I'll be thinking of you and checking back for an update!

Beth said...

I don't think you're wrong at all to want to get a 2nd opinion. I'll definitely be checking in tomorrow!

Jessica said...

I know tomorrow will be tough for you. I hope that you get good news tomorrow. You will be in my thoughts and I will also be checking in as soon as I get home from work tomorrow!

Bluebird said...

I couldn't. Not after having been pregnant - to know it and experience and love the baby inside you. I couldn't very easily accept that at all.

And I hope you don't have to. I hope everything goes well and the second opinion dr. is able to offer you hope.

Brendan and Brenna's Mom said...

I can't accept the fact that I won't be pregnant again. I can't. I know exactly how you feel right now. How did you get a doctor to give you those odds? None of my doctors will give me any odds. But they are all jerks.

Never forgetting Gregory said...

I'm definitely not one of the people who think you should just accept this...as if that is easy! I hope you get wonderful news and that the statistics aren't as gloomy as your first doctor said.