Sunday, July 4, 2010

23 months + one day...

That's how long she's been gone...I couldn't help but think to myself that this is the last month that she will be gone for less than two years...the two year mark will be official when the calendar says August 3, 2010...


In some ways, her death feels like it happened yesterday and in other ways it feels like a lifetime ago...


We went to a Fourth of July parade yesterday and I had to stop myself from saying outloud "this day would be perfect if Lily were here..." because wouldn't everyday be perfect if she were here...but, alas sometimes I think to myself if I would truly appreciate everyday with her if she hadn't died? Do most non-baby loss parents every stop to think about the very precious gift of life if they've never been through the death of a child? Would I be one of those head-in-my-ass type of people if my life had not drastically changed with her death on August 3, 2008?


Just ramblings, I guess...I just miss her so much...


Special request~ Lily's 2nd Heavenly birthday is August 3rd (where does the time go?) I would love to see her name and compose a video montage for her birthday so if you have the time and inclination to take a pic with her name that would be such a blessing! Lily pics can be emailed to lilysmommy8308@yahoo.com Thank you from the bottom of my heart in advance!

8 comments:

AKD said...

These anniversaries are such huge events - I'm finding the last few days harder than I imagined. It's so hard to reconcile what might have been with what is.

Love to you.

Susan said...

July 31/August 1 will be one year for us. I feel the same way....it seems like just yesterday and at the same time it feels like a lifetime ago. Big hugs...

Brie said...

I'd love to send a photo of her name and send some love from California..

Brie said...

I would love to send a photo of her name to you..I'll get on it, and send some love from California (=

Em said...

I'm sorry you're approaching another Angel Day. I'll be thinking of you and Lily.

Jill said...

I totally get what you mean about it feeling like just yesterday, but also a lifetime ago. Sending you LOTS of love! xx

Trennia said...

That's how I feel about my twins and Emily.It's feels likes yesterday,then it feels like well way to long:(
(((HUGS)))
I'm thinking of away to do Lily's name for you.

Maggie said...

I'm nowhere close to my one year mark and it still feels like yesterday and forever ago sometimes! Will be thinking of you & Lily. XOXO