Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I am making myself neurotic...already...

So, I have pulled out my trusty copy of the holy grail of pregnancy books What to expect when you're expecting. I find myself skimming the glossary to find all of the bad things that can happen in early pregnancy so that I can remind myself of all the bad things that can happen in the first trimester, and so I can recognize any symptoms immediately. My new obsession is blighted ovum, or as I just learned from bbc, an early pregnancy failure. Seriously, tomorrow will be one week from the BFP and its just so difficult to relax. If we do the c-section at 37 weeks then I have 32 more weeks of complete and total paranoia.

May 11th cannot come fast enough...I desperately need to see a heartbeat that day so that my stress level can come down a notch.

6 comments:

Beth said...

I was right there this past December. I am praying for your pregnancy and that everything goes well! I have another level 2 ultrasound on May 11 so I'll be thinking about you. :)

Mrs. Mother said...

I know how you feel. I'm right there with you.

Never forgetting Gregory said...

I did the same thing. When I went in for an ultrasound at 5w5d we only saw an empty sac and I was positive it was a blighted ovum. I can't wait to hear how relieved you will be when you see that heartbeat ticking away.

Michelle said...

My first pregnancy was a blighted ovum and I have worried about it ever since. I now wait until sometime during the 7th week before having my early ultrasound because sometimes the heartbeat just isn't detected until later and I don't want to freak myself out for no reason. Honestly, my current pregnancy has been such a series of milestones and it seems like it's that way for many moms who have lost babies. I will definitely be thinking of you May 11th!

Bluebird said...

Oh my gosh put down the book! Okay, I mean really, I'm not one to talk, as I always resort to dr. google :) But that book is bad news! Hoping the time flies until May 11!

Erica said...

Hugs to you. I actually hate that book, I've threw it away when someone gave us to us when I was pregnant with Braylynne. I know how hard it is not to worry, especially since the "innocent pregnancy" has been stolen away. God already knows what will happen, he's walking beside you on this new pregnancy journey. Talk to him when you feel "neurotic", maybe he can help. I'm always here too.