Sunday, May 9, 2010

I wish she was here...

Sometimes, I wish my mind back to that day so that I can remember the way her little fingers felt on my hands.

Most days, I hate myself for not kissing her cheeks...why, didn't I???? For not spending more time with her...

I miss her...

I hate how many "mommy's first mother's day" cards I received this year...as if Lily's job of making me a mommy never existed...

I love her with every beat of my heart...

3 comments:

Trennia said...

Oh Jen,
I too can think of alot of things I wish I had done with Emily.Right now first thing always comes to mind is I forgot her socks the day of her funeral,it crushed me inside Emily was buried without socks!
I couldn't leave the funeral home to go back and get them, I didn't want to lose anytime I was given with her.I know how you feel...sending you lots of (((HUGS))) and this is how I feel you was a mother from the time Lily was concieved.Happy Mother's Day...from the time Lily was concieved till now Happy Mother's Day.

Melissa said...

I am sorry you got a few happy first mothers day cards.. but I hope you had a good day today. Thinking of you.

Maggie said...

:( I'm sorry you received so many of those dreaded cards. But I hope you were able to enjoy Mother's Day with Cooper & honor and remember Lily at the same time. XO