Saturday, June 13, 2009

Nothing much to say except...

I miss her. I'm having a hard time today. All days are some degree of hard, but I really miss her today. I'm in love with the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon, and the main character in the book has a stillborn daughter. I just got done reading about her visiting her daughter's grave and I just started to cry. Its just a book with a fictious character, but I am that character. This is my real-life. And, in my reality, I am still very much heartbroken.

I'm just sad today. I wish she were here with me on this quiet Saturday. I wish she were here with me everyday of the week. I know I can't have that but with every heartbeat, I do wish that I could hold her again.

5 comments:

Never forgetting Gregory said...

Hugs. I have no idea why some days the pain is so raw. I wish you could have your sweet Lily with you every day also. I'd also give anything to have one more chance to hold Gregory. I'm sure we will always wish for that opportunity.

Mrs. Mother said...

I understand, too. Some days are just so hard. I want her here everyday, but some days more than others. Big hugs to you.

Erica said...

HUGS> I know sweetie, I know. I had a lot of issues at the beginning of pregnancy, because I felt that somehow I was cheating Angel... Now, since things took a different turn, I pray to her to help with her little brother. HUGS to you!! Just know that she loves you and is so very happy you are carrying life inside you agian.

Bree said...

Thanks for visiting my blog. I've actually peeked in on both of your blogs a couple of times. I love the pictures you have of Lily here. She was a beautiful baby!

Mirna said...

Awww Sweetheart! I know, I know. Big hugs to you...