Sunday, November 28, 2010

A sign from Lily

I never missed church before we lost Lily. I went on Sundays and Wednesday nights. I even belonged to a woman's bible study. I loved being at church and fellowshiping with other believers/followers of Jesus Christ. I went through a rebellious stage after we lost Lily. My bible collected dust. I went days without praying. However, I always knew He was there and that she was close by...

This rebellion lasted about 8 months and coincidentally we got pregnant with Cooper the very next month. Again, I started going back to church religiously until I was put into the hospital at 24 weeks but I belong to a huge church that is televised so I watched church on t.v. in my hospital bed. We started going back to church the first Sunday in April (RSV season was over) and one of the songs that we sang was "Shout to the Lord" which some of you may know is Lily's song. I thought "wow, how neat that this would be the song that we would sing on the Sunday that we came back!"

We've missed several weeks due to Cooper's stranger anxiety and seperation anxiety. Both of these anxieties seemed to happen overnight, like one day he was totally cool with other people than all of a sudden, he hated everyone other than my hubby and me. Interestingly enough, these anxieties ended the same way! He's back to a social butterfly!

We went back to church this morning and what song do they sing but "Shout to the Lord!" I started crying, yes, in the middle of church infront of God and everyone. It's like she was telling me that she was happy that we were back in the Lord's house. I can't explain it any other way! I felt like she was all around me during the service...I was sad to leave...

OH, how I miss her so much still...

7 comments:

Holly said...

How awesome the song was played both times!!

Trennia said...

(((HUGS)))
That is awesome!

Radiant Readhead said...

this happens to me all the time....in church it seems like is where Rosie tries to reach out to my husband and I...still praying hard for our rainbow, but we are certain God will bless us when He is ready.

Sarita Boyette said...

What a sweet sign from Lily! Such a touching story....

AKD said...

This just made me smile. :) What a beautiful sign from your precious angel, and what a wonderful way to have her and Cooper be close. Love to you!

Trena said...

((hugs)) this made me smile. ♥ I wanted to let you know that I gave you a blog award,just see my last post. It's just a fun little thing...I understand if you don't want to play along. Lots of love to you. ♥

Never forgetting Gregory said...

I love this. I think about you often. Glad you get those little reminders and signs from Lily.