Saturday, September 26, 2009

T.L.C. sucks

The channel that is...so many shows remind me of what I will never have with Lily. Here is a list of the most abusive shows to a grieving mommy~

A birth story~ I worry everytime a baby girl is born that her name will be Lily. I cringe when I see the pink outfit that they put on her to bring her home and when they show the girlie nursery.

Toddlers and Tiaras~ not because I was going to put her in beauty pageants, but because I will never take my daughter to buy dresses or get mani/pedis. I will never teach her how to put on make-up or watch her dance or sing.

Say yes to the dress or any other wedding show~ I will never celebrate with her as she finds the man of her dreams or help her find the perfect dress. I won't have the *pleasure* of spending over $20,000 the give her the best day of her life. I will never see the love of my life walk his princess down the aisle or have his father/daughter dance.

No matter where I look there are reminders of all the things that I won't have a chance to do with my Lily. For whatever reason all my emotional pain falls on this channel but I can't take my eyes of it none-the-less.

8 comments:

Bree said...

I hate TLC too. Everyday I roll by the baby shows and even though I don't want to watch them, I can't help but watch. I hate when the descriptions say something like, "a couple experiences a difficult birth." And, then you watch and the woman has to endure labor for like 8 hours and finally has a C section. Really? That's your description of a difficult birth? Because I'd say one where your baby doesn't live is a difficult birth. TLC can bite me! Sorry, let me step off my soap box.

Hey! You're 26 weeks pregnant!! Congrats!

My Crazy LIfe....BUT love it! said...

I want you to know you can call me anytime of the day. I am here for you to talk about Lily or anything else you need.

Karen said...

(((Hugs))) I'm so sorry you lost your beautiful Lily.

Leila's mommy said...

i torture myself with tlc too. 'baby story' is the worst, but yet if i'm flipping through channels and it's on i can't seem to bring myself to change the channel. 'i didn't know i was pregnant' is another show i for some reason can't change either.... i don't know what it is!

Funsize said...

Yeah, I hate those shows. TLC gives all women a false sense of security- that we all carry our pregnancies to term, that we all get to take our babies home. TLC can bite me.

AKD said...

Oh, my goodness, I know exactly what you mean. Either they try to dramatize the minimal, or make light of situations that are truly hard. I also know exactly what you mean about it being horrible when you hear another baby with your baby's name - you instantly feel protective.

Jessica said...

Oh Jen *hugs* I can't say I have seen these shows recently as I try to avoid them, but I can see where they would remind you of Lily. You are in my prayers for continued healing and peace and especially health during your pregnancy with Cooper.

Never forgetting Gregory said...

I agree. I cannot watch those baby shows. After losing Gregory, just seeing a hospital room was so tough. I'm sorry you don't get to do those things with your sweet Lily. It isn't fair.