Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Wow, hard read

I just reviewed my medical records from the hospital for when Lily passed away. They're really hard to read, and although my husband has told me that I was really sick, I don't think I completely understood how close I came to dying that night and following day, also. Seeing the words "fetal demise" are heartbreaking...and sentences like "patient is critically ill" make my heart race all over again. I am thankful to be alive, and look at each day has a new opportunity to be a better, more loving, accepting, thankful human being. I was in the hospital from 8/2/08-8/7/08 and my records are a total of 457 pages...so it's alot to go through.

I think its good to get your medical records for your own personal files...and they are also helping me piece together those days that changed my life forever.

2 comments:

Jessica said...

I had never thought to get copies of my medical records, but that is really an excellent way to chronicle the events of those hard days. Thank you for sharing.

aimeeamomof3 said...

You are not only my sister but my best friend. The first day we saw you in the hospital I think my heart went in my throat. You mean the world to me and to see you that sick was horrible. I didn't want you to see me that worried, so I would leave the room to break down. Every time you went to sleep I would be scared to death that would be the last time I talked to you. That is why I bug you everyday( expect that one day I feel HORRIBLE about)by calling. I want you to know that I love you and don't want you to ever doubt that. I think about You, Chuck, and Lily Daily. Love y'all very much.