Monday, August 25, 2008

Morbid?

So, I plan on going with my husband on a business trip because he doesn't want to leave me alone overnight. We had our daughter cremated and her urn is in our bedroom, and I don't know if this is strange or not but I like her close by and this way I can talk to her when I wake up and when I go to bed at night. I'm aware that her soul is in heaven, but I still like to talk to her whenever I can...

Here's my worry...what if our house catches on fire while we're away and she's all alone...so, I've instructed my husband to put her in our firesafe safe when we are not going to be home overnight. I've always slightly worried about leaving our home unattended, but now I feel this overwhelming fear that something could happen to her while we're away. If she's in the safe then even if something happens than she would be alright.

I feel jealous of the parents who never have to have this crazy worry...

4 comments:

Mrs. Mother said...

I don't think it's morbid at all or strange. After we got Jenna's urn back, I carried it in my purse for a week. I just wanted her with me all the time.

Hollie said...

I don't think that's morbid in any way, shape or form! You want to keep your angel safe, there's nothing wrong with that.
After we had Cameron cremated, I carried his urn in my purse the whole day. I still have times where I want to, but I think to worst. Like what if my purse gets left somewhere or stolen...
I have a special box for his urn if we are to ever go somewhere on vacation or even just over night. He will be put in that box and is coming right along with me! :)

Mom to 2 boys +? said...

The first time we went out of town after Tyler died, I put all his handprints, pictures and other stuff in our fire-proof safe too. I just couldn't bear the thought of losing all I had left of him. Yep, weird but totally normal!
Kara

Becky said...

I did not have my baby cremated so I don't have an urn but I keep close tabs on everything I have of Liam's. I have pictures on my blog, saved on a flash drive I keep on me, in picture frames, in a scrapbook. I am so afraid of losing them forever because of a fire. I would like a whole safe dedicated to Liam's things